Isolation and overthinking

I love writing down my thoughts at midnight. It's 3 am, and I still can't sleep.

Why? Because of what?

Because my mind hasn't stopped looping over the same thoughts these past few days.

Lately, I've realized that I have been alone. I've been spending most of my time in my room, barely talking to anyone, even family members. I only keep in touch with two or three friends, and we hang out maybe once a week, sometimes once every two weeks.

I keep checking my phone, hoping someone texted me. When no one does, something just feels... off. Then I start scrolling, and somehow that only makes me feel worse and angry.

Social media killed romance. Girls want a luxurious lifestyle from men aged 17–23, saying they should be making at least $3,000 a month. The worst part is that even their own fathers might not make that much. One video says, "Let them go," while another says, "Chase them." People have started treating love like a science. They try everything. My mind is confused and exhausted and I've come to realize that social media makes an average girl think she's special and a special man think he's average.

I've stopped putting effort into talking to people. It feels like most people only remember me when they need a favor or want something from me. They kinda feel fake...

I don't really know what to do anymore. I don't know how to stop overthinking everything.

I'm really mentally exhausted and drained, and stressed. Even my hands started to shake for no reason...

I'm writing this hoping it can help me...